It's still all about INTIMACY

You'll probably be sick of me talking about intimacy with Christ but here it comes again. I can't move past this place...and when I do I get lost.

Since getting home I've learnt so much, many things have changed, and I have new questions every week - but in it all God has pointed me again and again towards getting to know Him deeper. He's uncovered so many areas where I still need to stand firm in Him in and allow Him to be my delight and not just His blessings. Since getting back from Bangladesh, I've been so aware of how incredibly safe and comfortable my life really is - I have a great family, great friends, never really had to deal with grief, and have always been comfortable and looked after, with many opportunities ahead of me. Wow, isn't it easy to love God in all of that?! Yep, it's not a struggle to be thankful. But the truth is that He alone is so much greater than all these blessings...if I lost all of these but still had a relationship with Jesus then that is enough to find my delight in! Am I there though? Is He alone enough for me or am I falling in love with His blessings?

While thinking about my life and where God might lead me, I'm becoming increasingly assured that it will not be Scotland and that it probably won't involve luxury. (Many confirmations and words of knowledge have led to this but mainly just a sense of knowing and heart for those (especially children) who suffer daily). If He is to take me away from the comforts I know, and too often see as entitlements, and plant me somewhere new then I fear that if I am not satisfied in Him then it won't take much to shake me. From reading through Psalms it's amazing reading over and over about David's struggles and times of complete loss and yet hearing Him cry out to God again and putting all of his treasure in the Lord alone. God certainly didn't promise riches on this earth - but ultimate riches that can out-shine every loss on earth. I want to be a person who puts all my treasure in the Lord, but it's so hard to when I love God in the context of a really nice cushty life in the westend of Glasgow. I don't want to love God for only what I can get FROM Him but for what I can get IN Him. How can I witness to someone who has had real losses in life if I am still talking about the God who gives me good things and has blessed me with a lovely life?! Surely that's a massive understatement and limitation of God's true goodness...the goodness, and peace, and joys, and comforts can be found IN Him and hope in Him regardless of tangible blessings that we like to see. HE is enough. Man, I want to know this more. I feel so challenged when I hear from testimonies of people who really had nothing then found God and saw that relationship with Him was enough and find such joy in Him against all their persecution and loss. I am certainly not asking for grief, but it is not rare in life, and I hope I will know God personally enough that He does not change (in my perception) when my circumstances change. I don't want to learn this too late. Thank God He is so much more than enough!!

How can I know Him personally? By searching out and spending time in His presence. That alone noone can take from me and that alone is enough. I know that when I truely come to Him and experience His closeness but too often it takes a lot for me to really come to Him. When I start to idolise anything that is not His presence, I am always questioning why I am not fulfilled. It's been so humbling but amazing to learn over and over and over that my satisfaction really only is in meeting Him. Evangelising the whole world doesn't offer any fulfillment if I don't feel Him. Day by day it gets harder to come to Him and not let it become a task focused routine but He's still exciting every morning so I don't want to miss that by 'doing' my focused times with Him. Please pray 1st that my daily times of intimacy with God will increase in life-givingness(?) and that I'll really prioritise and desire these times as I wake.

So that's been a big summary of what God's been teaching me for the last few months.

Oh man, this song by The Sing Team explains so much better what we should aspire to through suffering or anything. "LET MY LOSSES SHOW ME ALL I TRUELY HAVE IS YOU"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7O7LQpQaoc

I had so much more I meant to say again but got lost in this. Next, I'll tell you all about how Navs life this far is going....

Rosh x

Connecting it up in Glasgow!...back to Navs :)

Wow, I've really taken my time with any updates about working with Navs...apologies! It's been a wonderful time though. There's much to say!

It's been pretty busy, lots of coffees, Jesus chats, training, weekends away...and not much time for blogging....or my mind has just turned to smoosh by the end of the day.

I would love to give a nice wee summary of what it is that I do with Connect but it's really hard to pin it down! If you haven't already heard, Navs is a discipleship minstry for university/college students, and I'm doing the 1 year internship with Glasgow Navs called Connect which involves getting alongside the girls and walking with them towards Christ! We have our weekly group bible study/dinner and then we will normally meet to hang out in pairs throughout the week. It's a massive honor to have a job where I am encouraged and supported to talk with people about God and see how we can go deeper in relationship with Him. It's definately not a one-sided support, I probably get at least as much encouragement from the girls as they do from me. As well as personal discipleship, the year includes overseeing and organising the Navs events throughout the year, like weekends away, the prayer meetings, worship times, and the Carol Service (coming up on Tues 11th Dec @ St Silas, 7.30pm. DON'T MISS IT). Me and Suzie (my fellow Connect one-er) also have a number of book studies throughout the year, a presentation, and a number of additional bible studies to go over as well as our weekly one with our Navs group. I never realised how much we would be poured into this year so the emphasis others have taken on building us up has been a total blessing!

I should probably tell you why I signed up for Connect in the first place:
Well a year and half ago I had just graduated and was praying about what to do next since I had just come to God and wanted to jump right in. I really felt like God said to apply for Connect that year and so I did after I was encouraged to by leaders. I went through all the application process and interview to be told that I wouldn't be taken on because I was such a new Christian. I was devastated since I was sure God has said and I thought I mustn't be able to hear from God (keep reading...it makes sense later). So then came YWAM and I am certain this was God's plan for me instead. I had always thought that Connect would be the obvious plan for after YWAM and thought it'd be nice to be in Glasgow again for atleast another year, knowing that I didn't feel called here long term. However, in the 2nd week of YWAM I was in prayer and felt like God said "You know how you're thinking of doing Connect...did I say that or was that you?" and I knew that I had decided on that as a nice next choice as opposed to asking God. Then He said "What if I wanted you to leave your nice family, mum, church and friends and start you life of 'mission' now and stay on outreach or wherever in the world I might want you. Are you ready to go?" Then I realised how I had always invisioned the mission for the future when I'm ready, and saw how tightly I was holding on to these great blessings God had given me but letting them restrict how/where He wants to use me. So with many tears I prayed and handed these things back to God, knowing that He is trustworthy and only life surrendered with Him is at its fullest. I then spent the next 2 weeks anticipating that anyday He might tell me where He wants me to go and that it probably won't be anywhere near home. Then in worship one morning He said 'I needed you to give up all those things you were holding onto, but I want you to do Connect. Now it's my terms, not yours'. I was so confident that this was God but asked for a confirmation anyway since they're fun to have! - And got back to the base straight from worship, opened my email, and sitting there was 1 new mail saying 'You can now apply to Connect'. My first email from Navs in like 3 months! Confirmation, check! And since I was away in Bangladesh and only able to do the online application, it turned out that since I had had the interview and leadership training during last years application process they had more to go on...so I did hear Him right the year before! I know now how essential it was that God took it away and then gave it back in a new light...since my idea of Connect before was staying home and soaking it up before life of mission truely starts, but since I have given up home as entitilement to God, I now see this year that mission starts here, not far off in the future when I'm 'ready' - whatever that is?
....Hope that story made sense!

All I need to ask now when I experience a struggle with my purpose/effectiveness in Navs is ask 'Did God call me here?' and since I have a clear 'Yes', it's so easy to trust in Him this year that this is exactly where He wants me to be, therefore the most effective place I can be - in His will!

Oh and the team is amazing! Me and Suzie (the other Connect 1-er, front row 2nd from left) have really similiar passions and visions for this year, and get along super well! And it's been pretty amazing working with Sam too, since his passions for prayer and seeing God glorified have always encouraged me from day 1. He's challenged me to not lose my focus in all the details + busyness but to pursue intimacy with God. Here's the team for this year :) Great bunch:

That's enough for one blog. Have lots more to say so will try get it up asap.

Thanks for listening!

Rosh x

:: Back to Scotland...Hello seatbelts. ::

What a change! I'd almost forgotten what it was like to...wear a seat belt. eat chocolate that doesn't taste like cheese, won't miss you Hersheys. be able to buy instant coffee, squash and spray deo. and say 'wee' with no one laughing at me...

Through all these trials....I really will miss Maui so much. I've never found a place or people so inviting, open and warm and don't know if another the same exists.

However, I was intentional about praying not to get attached to Maui but instead know that He who I was going for was coming back with me. And that has made it so much easier.

Though, when I first stepped off the plane in Scotland, I (with 3 days jet lag) had a panic thinking that all my time away in the states was spent with faith-filled open Americans and God using me amongst generally open people, meaning...surely He can't use me here! BUT the rest of my time home has been a journey of God showing me again and again that he works in big ways here too...just in different ways for a different crowd...equally exciting ways!

God taught me this almost from day 1 when I was invited to come and share at my old academy's Scripture Union....exactly as I had prayed for! I shared my testimony and about identity in God to a group of 8. I'm really not sure of all that it led to but I know it felt like such an anointed opportunity and privilege to share with the kids that I really feel it was powerful and significant. Just knowing that simply hearing a testimony of someone enjoying God and not just surviving could probably of shown me a lot when I was that age and hearing about my identity being in Him could have saved a lot of heart ache. Please pray they heard that.

Another testimony from the first weeks was getting the opportunity to pray for a group of American evangelists who were talking to people about God on the streets of Glasgow and happened to hand me a tract. Their prayer requests were to see fruit, any fruit, since they'd been there a week and seen none and had only had disruptions to their mission. I heard back that the next day they saw 6 people come to know the Lord and had no disruptions. I was so encouraged to even play a tiny role in that and that God would allow undeserving me to see Him work in mighty ways simply in response to prayer.

After the initial lows, I actually came back feeling so energized in God and aware of His presence and power through me in just my daily walk in Glasgow. Even more so than any time in Maui or Bangladesh! It was such a generous blessing. I know that so much of this came from surrender to God at the very start of my day and spending time in His presence before anything else. All fruitfulness really does come from intimacy with Him. There really is NOTHING we can do apart from Him. As times gone on I slowly forget this and lose a lot of my expectancy of His daily moving. But I don't want to. I want to carry expectancy wherever I go!! I don't want to miss out. That's all it is...He's big and ready and willing to move but I'm who misses out on seeing His great glory when i don't seek Him daily to see Him move daily. I really couldn't say I've ever felt more fulfilled than coming home and feeling like this! Please pray that the hunger continues but that it doesn't stay unfed and that I daily am reminded to seek the most exciting life there is in Him...in quietness with Him.

God really spoke this over me again since being home when meeting up with my friend, Adele, after having a great time alone with God in the morning and asking for provision of opportunities to see Him glorified. We went to Starbucks and spent the 2 hours speaking about fullness and freedom found in Christ and no other, which led to the guy across from us coming up from hearing our conversation and...long story short...praying to give His life over to God there in Starbucks. By none of our effort but only Gods hand.

But more than seeing God move, the most amazing thing has simply been feeling His presence and feeling He's living and breathing. This is the place I desire to be above all. I don't want to sell God short by seeking anything less.

Even though all this might sound like amazing lessons to learn and experience, I really am not as faithful to seek these things daily. I forget and I get lost in other peoples walks and dim down the call He has on my life...all by lack of faith. But I know I'm not stuck there. He's alive and that's not based on my emotions. But please could you be praying for me to really seek Him first daily...not by striving but out of delight. I lose that focus too much. I would love to have people praying over this especially. Thankyou!

Being home really has been amazing and I have no question at all that God has called me back home for now. I have total peace. And church has been so so good since getting back! God is doing so much and through humble and powerful teaching. Exciting times. We were prepared in our YWAM debrief to go back as lights to our home complacent stagnant churches...don't think that could ever apply to ReHope! As well as all this, God has really blessed me with amazing friends and fellowship, something that I'd been praying for :)

Next....I'll fill you in on the plan for the rest of the year with Navs!

God Bless xx

:: Rosh is back from YWAM but doesn't know how to change the name ::

Hey Everyone!

I have been so blessed since returning from YWAM a couple months back to hear that so many of you were reading my blogs and checking in one me :) Really, thank you for that...it have encouraged me so much!

SO...Why stop now?! I figured if I'm writing blogs to tell everyone about what's going on in my life and what God's doing then I'm just underestimating Him by not blogging about what He's doing in Scotland too because of thinking He won't be moving in incredible ways here the same as YWAM. God is God regardless of my location.

Writing posts also helped me look over everything and just see the incredible ways God has been faithful to fulfill what He set out to do, and see the incredible journey He has had me on. Made me realise all the work He had been doing and ways He has constantly been moving amongst my fear of Him staying stagnant. So I get so much out of sharing this stuff too...even better knowing it encourages others too!

There really is so much to tell! Maybe I'll start off with a blogathon and just cover:

- Life since returning to Scotland!!
- Doing Connect and my vision for the year ahead
-...Throwing in testimonies and prayer requests throughout

Peace.

Nomaashkaar! Hello from the land of Bangla!

 Hello home!

I have been so bad at updating this thing but it's probably no surprise that there's actually not that many opportunities to get online here. I love this country so much. The people are so loving, hospitable and kind...its amazing. There is so so so much to talk about, where will I start??

We are now in our 6th week here and we are in our second ministry area out of 3.  The first week we spent in Dhaka getting settled.  Then moved on to Khagachari where we spent 3 weeks. Khagachari was beautiful, it is covered by rice fields and

farms. Everywhere is green! Cows and goats roam the streets everywhere you go, even through the market. It's great. It was a lot more peaceful than the craziness of Dhaka. Our contacts were this incredible local family who have completely devoted their lives to witnessing for Jesus in Khagachari. Samiran, the dad, was once the most wanted man in Khagachari for trying to tell people about Jesus. The area is majority Buddhist and Hindu. Crazy, since he is one of the most kind and gentle people I've met.

We were lucky enough to be there for the Bangla new year so we got stuffed with all the families left overs on house visits. Generally the food is awesome, so much rice and potatoes and naan, but there was some fun additions, like toxic rice wine which they really insisted upon, and a couple of chicken feet. We really were fed well.  And got to meet really interesting people on house visits; pastors with insane persecution stories, politicians, and teachers. We also led an English class at the church and made a lot of friends there including our Buddhist monk friend, Ong.  And in the mornings we led English classes to the local primary school to some really smart kids.

For the second half of our time there we went to church and house visits all day, travelling by CNG on dirt tracks for a long haul every morning (CNG are crazy 3 wheel box cars). Then we would walk up into the hills and through farms for long distances to get to these churches. Then we led the services with the message, a testimony, songs and a dance skit. The best thing though was hearing their stories of how strong they have remained in God and how He has miraculously provided for them from having churches upon churches burnt down and attempted murder on the pastors! It's the most humbling thing to be asked to speak messages in to these amazing peoples lives when we have so much to learn from them!

We got to share the gospel so many times and see as Jesus completely impacted them. But it was often a sad thing to hear how they know it is truth but are too scared of the reaction of the villages and being shunned by their families to turn away from the religion they were raised in. But all the people we met who were Christians were whole heartedly going for Jesus with such joy!

We met one wee girl, Shudamki, we called 'mini Hilde' as they were never separated and her story was amazing. Her and her family were previously Buddhist and 3 years ago she got a brain tumor. The doctors were unable to help as there was nothing they could do, so they went for prayer at the Buddhist and Hindu families and still nothing, and as a cultural thing, the whole family decided they would die with her and planned their suicide. Then they went for prayer at a Christian home and Shudamki was healed. 3 years later and still no tumor! The whole family came to know Jesus and now even if her family can't make it, Shudamki is at church every week and is best friends with all the elders! And she's 11! Every house visit we went on she would just appear from the blue as she just knew the local pastors so well. Oh wow, she was so inspiring. We got to hear so many incredible testimonies like this! These people really are so amazing.

Oh and living situations! We are well looked after, sleeping on concrete floors but with roll out matts, and SQUATIES:... Big wholes in the ground for the toilet, and bucket showers in Khag. Makes it feel more like outreach

Since its summer here it gets insanely hot and sweaty, unless theres a rain storm and then its terrential rain, thunder and lightening for hours. The storms are crazy but so much fun! Pray for rain...the heat is too much!

So now we are in Khulna, 16 hours away from Khag. We have been here for 8 days and have a little over that to go. This is a beautiful place and shows so much prosperity. We have seen so much poverty and apathy in Bangladesh but the people we have met here have generally been really motivated and commited to helping their country. It is very like Khag as there are still rice fields, cows and goats everywhere, but maybe even more peaceful. The first 3 days here we had to lead the teaching at a conference for 150 people with a weeks warning! IT WAS AWESOME! It was so great to be in a place of worship and a church atmosphere that we can relate to and be filled up with about exactly half way through outreach. I led a seminar on what worship is all about and I think I got more from it than anyone. We also got to be the ministry team and pray for the people. This was amazing!....We prayed for many people with pain and physical problems and saw many healed! One woman I prayed for had pain in her legs and I prayed and from the little English she had, she said 'gone!' and the translater confirmed the pain had left.

And theres more!...around this time God gave me a new revelation of what it really is like to live in the love that He has for me. And to be broken before Him. There is nothing I have/can/ or ever will be able to do for God, except be His child! And that's my highest calling! The best thing I will ever be able to do is be a child of Gods and I am living in that now! Even if I had a massive ministry healing the sick and bring the lost to Jesus, it still adds nothing to the perfection He has already made of me in being His child. he finally took me to a place of brokeness where I could see how inadequate I am and my sin is, but then how much greater His love and grace is. It really freed me from a desire to strive to please God in big ministry or a radical life for Him. Now I've come to realise that that will add nothing to his love for me and that the best thing I can ever do is just soak in my Fathers love and let the overflow of that be my ministry. love on people with the love He's given me. Then I will never try to 'Do' anything for the Lord again but instead I won't be able to help but love and serve others...but no longer being work! Delight not Duty!!!

SO the day after this revelation and awesome time with Jesus we went to share with a classroom of children at a school. We spoke on Jonah and the whale and sang 'Hallelu, Hallelu' to direct it to the kids, not very deep....THEN 12 of the adults came forward to give their lives to the Lord! After that we spent some more time in that area where I got to share the gospel with 2 14yr old girls, from Hindu homes, who ended up wanting to commit their lives to Jesus and get involved in the church! Pray for Jesus to reveal himself more to them! THEN we went to teach in another village and again many people came forward for prayer, but this time for healing. We prayed and again saw many people with pain set free immediately! It was crazy, but yet felt very normal...like this is the way things should be.

Since then we have been teaching at orphanages and children's homes, as well as churches and at house visits. This whole time has been amazing and the most intense time I've got to have personally with Jesus. I sometimes need to double take that I'm here and have been allowed to stand with Jesus and be a part of His plan for this amazing country. Oh and we've had so much time to be reading the Bible! Reading through Isaiah just now...blown away! Bangladesh is such a beautiful country, really, you should come!

Next we go to Dhaka for 2 weeks...still unsure of the specific work we will be doing , like everything else we have done so far.

Please be praying for me for this last stretch that I will be able to leave here and return home with peace and excitement for what Gods got for me next, and that I don't pine after Bangladesh once we leave. Also, that when i come home, I will still be on fire and dedicated to spending all my time with jesus. And even deeper revelation of Gods love and what it means to be a child of God...can't get enough of that.  I just want this time to be a platform for where Gods going to rocket me off from and not the most exciting time I'm ever going to have with Jesus, I expect this to be just the beginning.

Thank you so much for taking an interest in everything I'm doing and supporting me through prayer. I love knowing that this can encourage others at home too. Only a month until I'm home now. Can't wait to see you all!! and you Mum!  

Rosh (Bangla word for 'juice')

So Hey, God´s 100% real! Mental!

Since blogging about the 1500 I had to raise in 10 days....well, GOD PROVIDED! Thank you so so so much to everyone who donated. It was so incredible, all the money for Feb 1st came in on time to buy flights.

(I have $2000 still to raise for March 1st which is the final payment...So please be praying or that.)

It was so cool, I had had one really great time of prayer asking for His provision and after I went to check my online account and I´d received a 500pnd annonymous donation!! Whoever you are, thankyou so much...you were part of God´s perfect and funny timing. I can´t get over how generous you friends have been. But mainly, I´ve been blown away by the fact that God really will provide you with anything you need to follow His will! Serioulsy! God isn´t just 50% real...He´s either fully real as are every one of His promises, or He´s not atall. I´m ashamed that I´ve never pursued life with this knowing before. He WILL provide for me if Bangladesh is His plan is with me, and if it´s not His plan then why would I want to do go anyway! I feel like saying DUUUH to myself whenever I doubt about money stuff. God´s bigger than that!

So thankyou for reaffirming that to me all who donated!! It´s so exciting! And I so so so encourage you all to step out into whatever God calls you to with NO DOUBTS that He will provide. Just do the possible steps to where He leads, even if it seems too big a calling, and He will do the impossible! Let´s let Him be God!!! Sheeeesh, I need to chill.

On to YWAM life:
Ooooh man! So much has happened! I´ve no idea where to start! On the 2nd week of lectures we flew to the big island to the Kona YWAM base, the University of the Nations = which is the biggest YWAM base in the world. It was huuuuge! Like a town of Jesus freaks. I LOVED it! There was an amazing prayer and worship room open 24/7 (which God really spoke to me in) and a massive football pitch sized meeting space that we had our main meetings and worship all together. Aw man, the worship was incredible! It was the best worship I´ve experienced. God was so present. By the end everyone would be dancing around like mad! And Heidi Baker spoke! She was awesome....crazy awesome! Her stories were just full of God´s miraculous hand. Included, God moving lamposts for her car to avoid her being shot, Him multiplying chocolate and cookies for the children in Mozambique, and Him healing quadriplegics! AND THEN...after her first teaching, we had our break which this day was cookies...and the cookies multiplied! The cooks had said that there wasn´t enough for even one each but by the end peaople were taking about 5 away for friends! AWESOME! This was right after her teaching about God multiplying the cookies for the children in Mozambique.

The best thing about this week though wasn´t the teaching or the amazing campus or any of that stuff. But it was that God really spoke to me so clearly numerous times during prayer. Firstly, I realised that all good things really do come from intimacy with Him! I´ve finally learnt how to abide in His presence, without striving, and that from this He can really move in your life. But it is essential to an exciting life with God...spending time with Him! I hadn´t realised how much I had been missing out on when I thought spending time with God was just presenting my prayer requests to Him and talking at Him...not allowing Him the chance to talk back. I enjoy God so much more now- this has changed my life.

Also, He gave me a pretty heavy burden and realisation that Hell is very much real and made me question if I really believe that if I´m just sitting on my bum being lazy while people don´t know the importance of accepting Christ! Pretty crazy stuff. But thankfully He soon after showed me that it says so many times in His word to "always be joyful", and it´d be very hard to do this if we were constantly heavily burdened by Hell. It was an eye-opener though!

Kona was the best week of my life!

Since then we have had weeks on Basic Christianity, which gave great explanation to the solid logical arguement there is for God and the Bible. And a week with Chris Keim on our Identity In Christ. It was awesome and I took a lot away. The main thing being that `we do what we believe´....if we say we believe something, then why don´t we do it. For me that meant...why don´t I go and tell people about Jesus! Here and now! So that convicted me to start...and I have done....it´s incredible.

And last week we had New Hearts week, where we identify any lies and anxieties that we have taken in about ourselves from childhood or our past, and pray against them and forgive others. So much of it for the girls was low self-esteem from putting our identity and how we feel about ourselves on what people thing of us rather than on what God sees in us. God doesn´t make junk so why believe that.

I AM LOVING WHAT I AM LEARNING AND WHAT GOD IS DOING IN ME. I´M SO HAPPY! (And probably sounding a bit crazy)

I think I should round up for now but I hope that this fills you in. Oh and I went whale watching and cliff jumping in to the ocean off a 25ft rock. Cliff jumping´s not so fun when you close your eyes and land smack on your bum rather than feet first. I caved to peer pressure.But Maui´s awesome!

Oh and here´s my address if anyone wants to write or anything, I love mail ;) : Rosh Clark, c/o YWAM Maui, PO Box 790237, PAIA, HI 96779, USA

Keep facebooking and emailing....I love it, even though I´m awful at getting back to people because of no time. I´ve stayed in on a Saturday to get this done, what a bore.

Okay, Love you you all. Please pray for me and for God´s work to remain in me even when I return. GOD BLESS xxxxxxxx

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ONE LAST MONEY PLEA

I still have $2000 to raise before I go to Bangladesh...which is about 1,600pnds! This is for March 1st, 10 days time!

Please pray for provision for this and for peace for me as God says "Don´t worry about anything, instead, pray about everthing" (Phil 4:6- best verse ever).

If you feel led to help me with this then first THANKYOU and second:

Send money to my bank account:


MISS ROISIN L CLARK, Sort code- 800635 Account no.- 10000167. BANK OF SCOTLAND
Or you can follow this paypal link - http://bit.ly/pvBxWC

Amen x

I'M GOING TO BANGLADESH!!!

Yep, we had our outreach locations revealed to us last week and were given 10 minutes to number them 1-3 in preference. Out of the 3 I knew least about Bangladesh but somehow I really felt that that's what God wanted me to put first....and so did the leaders...so I'm heading to Bangladesh!!

So on March 24th (I think) we head off for a 3 month mission to Bangladesh. We will be involved in a big mixture of ministries including work in orphanages, supporting local churches and discipling locals...but the main ministry will be evangelising, inviting people to know God and make Him Lord of their lives. I'm sure there will be a number of prayer walks thrown in there too to be used however God wants us...I can't wait for this, God is mighty so I'm ready to pray for anyone who needs including for healing for the sick. Hey, God heals, he promised. I don't know a great deal more of the details just now and neither do the leaders but i will inform you more if we learn more over time but since it's not the most open of countries I'm not sure how much they can disclose.

What I do know is that its a 89.5% Muslim country, with 9.6% Hindu and the remaining <1% are Buddhist or Christian. Prayerfully we can change that. It seems like impossible figures to come against but "Everything is possible with God" (Mark 10:27). Awesome! China is a testament to that!!

And here's a picture of my team I'll be with - 

Plea for Donations


The whole thing is going to cost £2,500 (500 more than I knew) and so far I have raised 200 of that. We have to make our first payment on the 1st of February (I hadn't realised how early it would be) of £1,500...so 2 weeks time!! 


I am still confident that He will provide as He has got me here which looked impossible, and I know I have been faithful to pursue any fundraising opportunities He presented so far. 


I really ask for your prayer in this as it is impossible without Him! 


Also if you would like to get behind me in sending me out to change the nations (woo!) I would be so blessed if you ask God and listen if He prompts you to support me. 


The best way to send donations is to send it to my bank account - 


MISS ROISIN L CLARK, Sort code- 800635 Account no.- 10000167


Or you can follow this paypal link - http://bit.ly/pvBxWC
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Please please let me know if you have any ideas of how I can raise more of my funds! Desperate times!
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Rosh xx

I'M HEEEERE!! First 2 weeks of Jesus time in Hawaii!

Hello everyone! I'm so sorry for the lack of blogging, I have had a tough time getting online but a very generous girl has lent me her laptop.

Well I'm here in Maui and its AMAZING! Insane isn't it...don't know if I ever believed I'd make it. I arrived on Thursday 5th in the evening after 24 hours of traveling in the daylight, which wasn't the most fun. I arrived half dead. The journey didn't really go to planned either...due to the strong winds in Edinburgh my flight didn't leave until an hour after it was supposed to which meant I had 15 mins to run through Heathrow for my next flight! Then in Los Angeles airport everyone was a bit too chilled out to help direct me to my next flight in time which meant I got lost in the humungous airport and was last to board. Then unsurprisingly, on arrival I found out that my suitcase hadn't made it and was still stuck in London! I just received my suitcase back a week after arriving. But actually it was quite easy to cope without it, the girls in my room are lovely and have been so generous so clothes were never an issue.

I should set the scene a bit. The island is so beautiful and green and there's amazing colouful plants everywhere. The base is huge and is such an awesome place to live. We even have a blue parrot that comes and hangs with us while we have our meals. And no sign of rats yet. There's 16 of us girls who share the same room with triple bunk beds but its been so comfortable so far, no snorers. And the staff are great! Its such a fun house!

In the first couple of days we went to the beach at Paia bay. Its like a postcard beach. Though I wont be doing any swimming here...the waves are insane, its fun going in and jumping them....until it drags you under water and flips you then water shoots up your nose. But even so I'm going to try surfing next week...I won a 24hr surf rental in a raffle. I don't expect great things since I have awful balance on dry ground.

Our Exodus

On the night of Saturday 7th the DTS officially started and we had our opening night! And we were told that at 6am the next day we were going camping to start our Exodus and we could only pack like 10 things including only 1 t-shirt, 1 pair of socks, no toothbrush/paste, no deo, no hairbrush or makeup, no phones, no watches. This was to be for an unknown number of days in the 'wildnerness'. The idea was to show us how to follow God by just being present and not focusing on plans and whats happening next, and to get to know each other without all the falsities. Also to learn how much excess we rely on that we don't need. I felt so spoilt when I returned to my suitcase full of stuff! But I think everyone would say they got so much from being taken away from all the distractions. During Exodus we shared our testimonies around the camp fire and got to see amazing ways how God has worked through people and how much he heals whose who were once so broken. There really was some incredible stories where God just showed up in such undeniable ways!The teaching from Exodus and since has been about completely surrendering to God and saying YES even before you know what he's asking. Its been challenging because I think I'm understanding that these aren't just words but will actually completely change the course of my life to a life I can't plan ahead for. Its scary but really really exciting. Oh and for breakfast everyday we had plain oatmeal! And for lunch and dinner we had plain instant noodles! We had to compete for flavouring. But noodles! I love noodles, not too shabby for me.

On day 3 of Exodus we were told to pack up to travel on to our next camping spot. This was when we were completely knackered and starting to stink from no soap or toothpaste. And after a day of mud fights then washing in a freezing river near by. After a car breakdown and an hour of driving in the heat we arrived at a church where all the staff we waiting for us with a feast inside! Really I don't know if I've experience relief and happiness like that! It was so good to eat!! Though we couldn't wash until we got home so still looked and smelt just awful. After the meal the leaders all knelt to serve us and wash our feet. It was incredible and so humbling. God really revealed how much he loves me just as I am in that time. We had some powerful praise time after. Ahh Exodus was amazing! Was such an amazing start!

And now we have properly started lectures....starting with a week on listening to God. We had our first day today and already, wow. Then we are traveling to Kona, the main island, for a week on week 2 to meet all the Hawaiian DTS groups!! Then we will have New Hearts week where we really give God the chance to heal any bitter roots we've lived with. I've really felt God really moving in my life already and He is consitently tell me to "Be still (cease striving) and know that I am Lord"...it's been such a peaceful revelation just to know that God wants to just enjoy a relationship with me and loves me as I am...I'm not accepted by my works but by His consistant love and grace over me. He's shown himself to me as a breeze many times now...I had an image at the start of me being a straw of long grass just being blown about in the breeze and felt he was saying to just relax in his presence and just be. Such a gentle teacher. What a great guy! I love God. He's also shown me things that I have my grip too tightly on that I need to offer up to Him, plans for my life ahead. It ain't easy but it's for much bigger things to come!

Thanks for reading!!! MAHALO! I miss home and Re:Hope but having too much of a good time to dwell on it! God's here too!

And read my next post....it's got some exciting news in there!!

Love to you all and GOD BLESS! xxx