:: Back to Scotland...Hello seatbelts. ::

What a change! I'd almost forgotten what it was like to...wear a seat belt. eat chocolate that doesn't taste like cheese, won't miss you Hersheys. be able to buy instant coffee, squash and spray deo. and say 'wee' with no one laughing at me...

Through all these trials....I really will miss Maui so much. I've never found a place or people so inviting, open and warm and don't know if another the same exists.

However, I was intentional about praying not to get attached to Maui but instead know that He who I was going for was coming back with me. And that has made it so much easier.

Though, when I first stepped off the plane in Scotland, I (with 3 days jet lag) had a panic thinking that all my time away in the states was spent with faith-filled open Americans and God using me amongst generally open people, meaning...surely He can't use me here! BUT the rest of my time home has been a journey of God showing me again and again that he works in big ways here too...just in different ways for a different crowd...equally exciting ways!

God taught me this almost from day 1 when I was invited to come and share at my old academy's Scripture Union....exactly as I had prayed for! I shared my testimony and about identity in God to a group of 8. I'm really not sure of all that it led to but I know it felt like such an anointed opportunity and privilege to share with the kids that I really feel it was powerful and significant. Just knowing that simply hearing a testimony of someone enjoying God and not just surviving could probably of shown me a lot when I was that age and hearing about my identity being in Him could have saved a lot of heart ache. Please pray they heard that.

Another testimony from the first weeks was getting the opportunity to pray for a group of American evangelists who were talking to people about God on the streets of Glasgow and happened to hand me a tract. Their prayer requests were to see fruit, any fruit, since they'd been there a week and seen none and had only had disruptions to their mission. I heard back that the next day they saw 6 people come to know the Lord and had no disruptions. I was so encouraged to even play a tiny role in that and that God would allow undeserving me to see Him work in mighty ways simply in response to prayer.

After the initial lows, I actually came back feeling so energized in God and aware of His presence and power through me in just my daily walk in Glasgow. Even more so than any time in Maui or Bangladesh! It was such a generous blessing. I know that so much of this came from surrender to God at the very start of my day and spending time in His presence before anything else. All fruitfulness really does come from intimacy with Him. There really is NOTHING we can do apart from Him. As times gone on I slowly forget this and lose a lot of my expectancy of His daily moving. But I don't want to. I want to carry expectancy wherever I go!! I don't want to miss out. That's all it is...He's big and ready and willing to move but I'm who misses out on seeing His great glory when i don't seek Him daily to see Him move daily. I really couldn't say I've ever felt more fulfilled than coming home and feeling like this! Please pray that the hunger continues but that it doesn't stay unfed and that I daily am reminded to seek the most exciting life there is in Him...in quietness with Him.

God really spoke this over me again since being home when meeting up with my friend, Adele, after having a great time alone with God in the morning and asking for provision of opportunities to see Him glorified. We went to Starbucks and spent the 2 hours speaking about fullness and freedom found in Christ and no other, which led to the guy across from us coming up from hearing our conversation and...long story short...praying to give His life over to God there in Starbucks. By none of our effort but only Gods hand.

But more than seeing God move, the most amazing thing has simply been feeling His presence and feeling He's living and breathing. This is the place I desire to be above all. I don't want to sell God short by seeking anything less.

Even though all this might sound like amazing lessons to learn and experience, I really am not as faithful to seek these things daily. I forget and I get lost in other peoples walks and dim down the call He has on my life...all by lack of faith. But I know I'm not stuck there. He's alive and that's not based on my emotions. But please could you be praying for me to really seek Him first daily...not by striving but out of delight. I lose that focus too much. I would love to have people praying over this especially. Thankyou!

Being home really has been amazing and I have no question at all that God has called me back home for now. I have total peace. And church has been so so good since getting back! God is doing so much and through humble and powerful teaching. Exciting times. We were prepared in our YWAM debrief to go back as lights to our home complacent stagnant churches...don't think that could ever apply to ReHope! As well as all this, God has really blessed me with amazing friends and fellowship, something that I'd been praying for :)

Next....I'll fill you in on the plan for the rest of the year with Navs!

God Bless xx

:: Rosh is back from YWAM but doesn't know how to change the name ::

Hey Everyone!

I have been so blessed since returning from YWAM a couple months back to hear that so many of you were reading my blogs and checking in one me :) Really, thank you for that...it have encouraged me so much!

SO...Why stop now?! I figured if I'm writing blogs to tell everyone about what's going on in my life and what God's doing then I'm just underestimating Him by not blogging about what He's doing in Scotland too because of thinking He won't be moving in incredible ways here the same as YWAM. God is God regardless of my location.

Writing posts also helped me look over everything and just see the incredible ways God has been faithful to fulfill what He set out to do, and see the incredible journey He has had me on. Made me realise all the work He had been doing and ways He has constantly been moving amongst my fear of Him staying stagnant. So I get so much out of sharing this stuff too...even better knowing it encourages others too!

There really is so much to tell! Maybe I'll start off with a blogathon and just cover:

- Life since returning to Scotland!!
- Doing Connect and my vision for the year ahead
-...Throwing in testimonies and prayer requests throughout

Peace.